ok so i don't know to much to say on this subject. i could say that maybe starting reading romance novels at such a young age probably most likely messed me up for how guys really are in real life. i have standards that maybe possibly only guys in those books can live up to. I don't want to lower my standards and i don't want to become a spinster either. it makes me frustrated though because it seems like all the guys i tend to go out with end up being the ones who get majorly attached or they are so dis-attached that i feel like they don't even like me the way they claim to do. I'm kind of angry at myself for that though because i know that guys only treat me that way because i have let them...i used to not care so much so it wouldn't really be that big of a deal if a guy left me stranded on the plaza for a couple of hours, or if a guy stood me up and then ended up being at the place we were supposed to meet later on in the day, or if he cheated on me and i cheated back to make him feel bad but it did nothing but show me how much of a wuss i am because its not that i'm scared to speak my mind it's that i'm angry because i want to and i know i would blow up and then i would say things and possibly do things that i don't want to do. and that would do nothing but make me mad :( gosh i wish things where as easy as when older people say "You have your life, young one, to find someone to love"
GROWING UP, NOT SURE IF I WANT TO BUT UNDERSTANDING I HAVE TO...
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