Something New?

I'm only scared because of my past, the future doesn't seem to bright, the light dims slowly over the months, years, minutes; i can tell that life isn't going to be as i had planned, moving on into where i am now, i realize that i've changed, my mind is sharp, my heart is cold, my soul is thinning, i'm becoming so far from the stereotype that im an alien. my fingers reach beyond the stars, they grasp the moon tightly in their sinews, they wrap it around their knuckles, they never let go. I'VE CHANGED...AND THATS OK...I'M A BETTER PERSON...WHERE IT COUNTS!

Cheers to...New Experiences

When life causes you to not..change your morals, but rethink your past goals you gotta do it. Think about the consequences of your actions and how they make you feel, or how they are going to make you feel if you haven't done them yet. Getting used this new mindset might be hard but it also might be for the best. Somethings, whether you do them or not, might not change your appearance or outlook on life at all...which is ok. I, on the other hand, believe that when i make a decision about something it might either give me a new perspective or jus add a notch in my 'xp' belt. A new experience that i encountered was ALMOST completely out of my hands...one of those didn't mean to happen things. I must admitt that once the shock wore off i cried like a baby. Not only for the death of my innocence but i cried because i knew my future "what ever his name is" might not be as happy about my ALMOST decision as he woulda been if i didnt ALMOST make the decision (and as complicated as that sounds...i'm saying it this way for a purpose). But then i realized that i did what i did. Life would go on and there was nothing that i could do to change that. That i would have to look forward in my life and not cry about yesterdays 'soggy napkins'. So i did. and now there is no turning back. i'm a woman. I would be glad if it was entirely easy to just start acting like one but these things take time! I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE YOU...I LIKE ME. WHETHER YOU LIKE ME OR NOT IS YOUR PROBLEM...WHY TRY TO CHANGE WHO I AM?