Adoption and my little brother

so i just found out where my brother lived. you see i'm adopted and my family is mostly close. all blood except for my brother who stays with an aunt (?) in mississippi. i didn't find this out until not to long ago. considering how long i have been looking for him i am so glad that i have found him. just because we didn't grow up together doesn't mean we don't have that strong bond that brothers and sisters are supposedly supposed to have. at least i feel it down here on my side. i wrote him a letter and i really want him to write me back and if he doesn't... i don't even want to think about what i would feel like if he didn't. i'm just hoping that he will.
SITTIN AND THINKING AND DREAMIN...i'm so cool

homework

so i'm so swamped with home work and it is just so overwhelming. i seriously wish that i could make it all just go away... too bad it can't
SITTIN AND THINKING AND DREAMIN...i'm so cool

i know i think i believe

i'm not sure if i'm the only one that has ever sat down and thought about this before so i'm just going to say what i think.
when someone says "I think" they mean they don't know for sure. they kind of believe you but they are not sure if they do. they don't know if a thing is true but are kind of afriad of the outcomes if they don't. they think they do.
when someone says "I know" it means they don't necessarily mean that they believe it just means that they know what your sayin is right (as if you scientifically proved it) but they are not sure how you get your information. so they know that is what you say they are not sure they believe it but they have heard your theory someplace somewhere
when someone says "I believe" it means they knew it was true before you said something. they know that it is true that you are saying it now and that there is probably almost nothing you could do that would keep them from changing their mind. they believe and they stand on that.
i know i think i believe
understand?
SITTIN AND THINKING AND DREAMIN...i'm so cool

एवर थौघ्त अबाउट बोरेदोम?

boredom
boredom is a small drug that eats away at your brain. slowly devouring your inner brain muscles turning them to mush and juicy nothings. it makes your head ring and your skin tingle. it almost could drive you to the point of insanity. could drive a less than violent man to kill and a calm and peaceful mother to buy up a shopping mall. you could die in this state. you could go into a deep emotional coma and never come out. boredom strikes when you can think of nothing to do to save you from yourself. your mind thinks up all these crazy and weird ideas and you seem to have outburst of laughter and strong waves of nauseousness.
but then agian boredom is a state of mind. if you tell my mother you are boredom what would she say besides "well then irma, go find something to do. if you are bored it simply means you are a boring person" i used to think that was funn. me? a boring person? never! but then i realize that boredom could also be the result or even the cause of depression. the result and cause of guilt, shame, and even the deepest feelings of hatred and anger. when boredom begins to settle in simply sit and think, "AM I A BORING PERSON? or maybe even DID SOMETHING HAPPEN TO ME THAT THERE IS NOTHING THAT COULD SATISFY MY SENSE OF ADRENALINE? or perhaps WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME RECENTLY THAT COULD CAUSE ME TO FALL INTO A DEPRESSION OR EVEN SOME DEEP EMOTIONAL COMA?" thinkin on these could probably stop a lot of americas crime, murder, suicide
or maybe i'm just crazy!
and even a little...bored?
SITTIN AND THINKING AND DREAMIN...i'm so cool

dying

and now i don't know what to say. i feel good. i feel bad. and i almost died last night. and yet i am willing to be calm enough to sit here and tell you how i feel. i told you. so now what?
SITTIN AND THINKING AND DREAMIN...i'm so cool