Sometimes I make bad decisions. I think they might be the right ones at the time but then it turns out that they aren't.
Sometimes I make good decisions. I think they might be really bad, boring or life-altering decisions but then it turns out that they aren't.
I have tried to keep my heart out of my life. It sounds really funny but often times my heart is what gets in the way. I make decisions based on the pain that I might cause others. I think about all the things that I might have to pay for or regrets i might have but I have stopped. I've stopped caring. I've become the ice queen and for some reason I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not. I know that some have already told me that I've become more closed off or that I've stopped opening up but does that really matter? Is opening up to those that hurt me going to help me in any way? Will it further my career? Will it provide me with any new experiences? I doubt it. The only thing that it will provide is an up flow of thoughts, unwanted advice and a flurry of betrayal after your secrets are spread amongst the many that you'd attempt to keep out.
Maybe I have a cynics way of see in things but that's just the way it is. No Win For Losing. Life looks up and life looks down and sometimes you don't know which is which.
Breathe, take a step back and think…In five years, my company will be up and started. My mind will be on the right track. My kid and i will be living life the way it's suppose to be lived and I will continue to be the same Irma.
Dreams do come true. It just depends on what time they come.
Better Late Than Never!
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