Word Definitions

To fail is to make a goal and not meet it. To be a failure is to make several goals and not meet any of them. Sometimes, while looking back on life, i realize that things that i have said...done...or even thought are the product of the way I looked at the things, of the world, in my life. My views on marriage are directly proportional to the marriages and the couples that I saw fall apart, stick together, and just not happen...throughout my entire life. Marriage is to legally bind yourself to another person using vows, signatures and witnesses. I would say, out of all the marriages that have ended...out of all the ones that have lasted...out of all the ones that didn't happen...I'm still willing to give it a try. I used to think that I was meant to be alone...and maybe I am. Maybe I'm meant to be one of those who dies without a husband by her side. Just because I feel like I might be meant for that...doesn't exactly mean it has to turn out that way. I don't want to be alone. Although I am the hardest person EVER to live with...I don't want to sit in my rocking chair thinking of life in shoulda-woulda-coulda's. To be Alone is to be by yourself, mentally or physically. I never asked to be alone...I simply grew up and BAMMM...there alone was. I refuse to be that way when I get older. But then again, I also feel that you can be married, in a domestic partnership, be in polygamist relationships and still be alone. Word of mouth. To refuse is to not allow something being said, done, or given. I refuse to do as bad in college as I did the first semester of my freshman year. I refuse to spiral down, back into depression, to where my grades were directly proportional to my attitude. Never again. I'm stopping that mess right here. If you were going to think it? I refuse to let you believe it. I know I have failed, believing that I was alone...but I will no longer and although you may have lost all hope in me...I haven't. That's all I have to say. To say is to speak something into existence using words, symbols and sounds...by my word definition. The light in me sees the light in you.